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hmmm..its been a rough day for me. im like thinking about so many things. was about to go to work when my mum called me asking me to help her out.i was unaware of whats happening to her. so i called my boss. saying i'll be late. but when i went to the emergency admission to see her. i cried like fuck and was shock to see her leg swollen like mad.it was 3 times bigger and reddish.she was having a high fever. i straight away called my boss telling him i cannot come. was tearing cos she was in pain. and the problem is the minute she falls down she didn't even tell anyone its pain or something.furthermore shes a diabetic u know. and its a fact that when u hit a little it swells badly. now shes admitted cos doctor said they are afraid it will cause an infection.u know how fucking scared am i???! *sigh and im not holding myself up. im breaking down. its hurting to see her like this.my siblings are like that. don't bother. my dad? doesnt bother too. im praying they wake up. i got so many things to do and im struggling for this 4 weeks of my life.